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Maralyn Lois Polak -- FRIENDS
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1. Let him die on a Sunday,
you decide.
And so you call me, and I come. There could be
no otherwise.
He lies under the fig tree in your bedroom,
too weak to follow you with his eyes.
Nothing enters him, nothing leaves;
he is a perfect circle of death.
Slowly, too slowly, he is succumbing
to his body's own poisons.
It is killing you.
On this day you have chosen, before his
suffering becomes your habit,
you ready his beloved sheepskin rug,
play some classical music on the radio,
wait for the doctor,
and somehow mute your grief.
Soon. There is nothing else to do. We wrap him
in old towels. You hold his head.
He doesn't know you.
The music flows over us, a benediction.
The doctor finds your door, finds a vein.
Before the needle can empty, he is dead,
not even a start or a shudder.
2. Yet, incredibly, how warm he feels:
still, beneath his fur, the imagined echo
of a dull but certain pulse,
blood and bone and flesh, a declension,
this was alive, you were, we shall be,
promise of an afterlife. Around us,
snapshots and watercolors trap him
in full vitality. We almost believe them.
You curl him up, as if this is only
a long nap. Bravely,
you wrap him up in the read sweater you once
knit against winter,
place the ragged Frisbee at his feet,
cradle him with your soft flannel nightgown.
3. After the tactless man in loud green pants
from the pet cemetery
carries him away in a plain cardboard box,
we drive to the country for breakfast, relieved:
what a hard dying, an easy death.
It is fall, clear and crisp and bright,
just a hint of chill.
You tell me about the man
who took his aged mother to breakfast
every Sunday morning
at the pancake house, out of duty not love,
leaving his own family behind.
But when she died, he found his Sunday
mornings empty;
now his children take him to breakfast
every Sunday morning
at the same pancake house;
what an easy dying, a hard death.
We sit at the side of a lake, two women,
watching little children feeding ducks.
We have passed through storms of men,
and lived.
No longer young, we have known nothing
really personal of motherhood.
Nevertheless, we are thankful for the pleasures
of children,
the joy of the sun.
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